Are you ready for eternity?

June 10, 2021

It’s Two years ago as of a few moments ago I died on a hospital table. Six times over the next several hours. After reviving me the last time, they said I was brain dead. The next morning I woke up. They said I would never walk again. A week later I walked down the hall. They said I needed several organ transplants. A month later everything had recovered. They said my life span had been cut short. Six months later my doctor said he wouldn’t be surprised if I made it to 100 with the changes I’ve made. Now here I am at a film festival with my latest movie screening and special people in my life.

I’ve been asked why I thought I was brought back only to experience the loss I have this past year. I dealt with that anger and it engulfed me. Then I found a voicemail from Ryan I had never listened to from when I was in the hospital. (I never check my voicemail.) In it he told me how much he loved me and how happy he was I’m alive. That he didn’t know what he would do if he lost me. And that was when I realized I came back so he wouldn’t experience this pain I deal with. So, I let that anger go knowing he never had to go through this.Now, I will try to live the best life I can for him. I would have expected him to do the same. And I know he would be disappointed if I didn’t. I don’t think I will ever have the impact he did on the world, but want to give it a shot. It’s the least I could do for my son.

Gary Redlin - He will truly be missed

Jeremy Grimes - An awesome and amazing young man.

Tasha Murray - The most amazing young man. Thank you for sharing this amazing kid with me and Buddy Murray to know and love as one of our own. Prayers for you today and all the days ahead.

Nina Hosea - He will continue to be remembered as a great kid with a wonderful sense of humor. 

Nathan Austin - 😢 Man... words can’t express how I feel for u and your family. In my prayers bud!!!

Kayla Castaneda - Since I moved away I had no clue until today. I can’t imagine James. God I can’t... We are beside ourselves (the kids and I) I am SO SO sorry.

Tina Earls - Oh James and Amanda it is so hard to loose a child it changes us forever we don’t want to face each day without them but we have to which is so painful. The 18th will be a whole year that we lost our Keagan. The pain is worse because you haven’t got to talk to them, hug them, or to hear their voice. I pray for you daily God Bless y’all.

January 19, 2021

He was a loving brother.  A great friend. 

An amazing son.  And the best person.
"What we do for ourselves dies with us.  What we do for others’ lives beyond us."

Samone Norsworthy - At the keyboard! Didn’t know you played. Also. Such a beautiful memory!

James Fite- Yeah, been playing since I was little. Ryan got into it, then transitioned to drums. I think his drumming skills out did my piano playing, though.

Jeremy Grimes - Beautiful picture! I am sorry my friend. You are in my continued thoughts.

Nathan Austin - Bro it makes me tear up every time I think about what u are going through!! 

Zach Campbell - Big hugs man. Big hugs...

Ven Scott - Much love, brother.

James Fite - I'm not trying to make everyone sad. I just want to keep his memories going as we work through it.

Brooklin Mojica - As you should, you are doing great btw. 💕

Connie Chase - He was so special, and so are you! Love, Aunt Connie

Carrie Johnson - Great picture. Your hair looks red, and he is taking in everything you’re doing on those keys!

James Fite- It was red. That day. I used to dye my hair a lot.

March 8, 2021

After my heart attack, I had to deal with memory loss issues. One thing I could not remember was how to tie a tie. I was getting ready for a film festival, and I wanted to wear one, so Ryan came in and helped me remember how to tie it. I had shown him years before, (he loved his ties), and now he was able to use that to help me. I still see things around the house and in life I need his help with, and wish he was here to do so. But I will figure it out. He would have. He always did. And that is why I am forever proud of him. I miss you, Ryan. And thank you for everything.

December 11, 2020
Cameo by Steve Downes for

The Fite Family

Gaming Voice Actor - Halo 

Thank you Chris and @SteveDownes117 for this.
Ryan would have loved it.

January 11, 2021

A dad joke about band he might would appreciate... Can February March?

No, but April May...

January 22, 2021
James Fite - "There's never enough time to do all the nothing you want." -Calvin & Hobbes

Gage Davidson - I have this exact sword I bought at the Odessa comic con. Is that Ryan’s?

James Fite - Yes it is. This was from last year when it snowed in February. There's some pictures I posted a few days ago of him in his knight costume out in the snow.  

Gage Davidson - I thought it was always cool that Ryan and I had the same taste for Zelda .

Ryan Liam Fite
August 14, 2001 - December 4, 2020

Zach Campbell - Great pic!

Jessica Hibbitt - Fantastic photo.

Jacquelyn Mulkey - Loving you through it! I didn’t know your son, but I enjoy the stories and see he was a genuine person and lots of fun!​

Jake Leos - Happy Heavenly Birthday Ryan. Now when I say what’s up, I know it’s you (not the ceiling anymore. I miss hearing you say that.) You are missed.

(Ryan was a great person. I will cherish how he use to make me laugh. I would genuinely fall for it every time. I would say, “Hey what’s up Ryan?” And he would always say - “The ceiling.”)

Claudia Leos - He is greatly missed. Ryan was a sweet, kind, respectful and well manners young man. He will live in everyone’s heart. ❤️

Connie Chase - Happy Birthday, Ryan! I know you’re fine, but we sure miss you. I went with your Nanny yesterday to take some pretty flowers for you and Great Grandma. Love you,  Aunt Connie

Marie Evans - Me, Kris, and the kids went to visit him a couple hours ago. Today's always gonna be a hard one, I love and miss him so much! I'm here if yall need anything. ❤️

Angie Osgood - Happy Birthday! I wish I would have got to meet him. If you ever need someone to just sit with, I'm here for you. I've got lots of animals to just stare at.

Tasha Murray - Happy Heavenly Birthday to the most amazing young man!! We love and miss you Ryan. ❤️

Greg McAlister - Happy Birthday Ryan. I know your watching over your family and friends every day.

Jackie Thomas - Happy Birthday Ryan. I remember when you were a kiddo. You are missed.

Janet Nelson - Happy Heavenly Birthday. Prayers lifted up for you all today.

Jeremy Grimes - Happy Birthday Ryan. Miss you my friend.

Heather Lopez - Happy Heavenly Birthday Ryan! ❤️

Eddie Gonzales - Happy Heavenly Birthday.

Alfonso Baca - Happy Heavenly Birthday.

Darrin Black - Happy Heavenly Birthday.

Emma Johnson - Happy Birthday Ryan. ❤️

Kaila Murray - Happy Birthday Ryan! ❤️❤️

MA Love - Happy Heavenly birthday. ❤️

Nina Hosea - Happy Birthday Ryan!

Robert Chase - Happy Birthday!

Adrian Calvio - ❤️

Buddy Murray - He was always willing to learn, he always gave it his best. He was the best helper/friend you could ever have. I miss and think of him every day.

Brooklin Mojica - He was always there when we needed him. Such a caring person. You are doing so great, I'm sure he is very proud of you.  💕

Jessica Hibbitt - That’s an incredible moment!

Brenda Garza - That's a beautiful memory.

Marie Evans - Now I want to keep the shirt and tie. I miss my nephew so much, love you James. Thanks for sharing your memories with us.

Jake Perry - Not much gets me..... that got me.  😥

Jeana Phillips - So sorry. I know y’all miss him terribly.  ❤️

Amanda Fite - These last few days have been really hard. ​​ I miss his pranks, his costumes, and even his dad jokes.

May 16, 2021

The BSHS band boosters are giving out three $1000 memorial scholarships in honor of Ryan at the spring concert today at 3:00 PM. The concert is going to be live streamed on the booster's Facebook page.

James Fite - Congratulations to the winners of the Ryan Fite memorial scholarship and thank you everyone for helping his memory live on.

Amanda Fite - This was rough for us today, but beautiful. I hope his memory goes on forever.

Robert Chase - He will always be missed but will never be forgotten! Wonderful to know that through this memorial scholarship he will continue to impact the lives of people just as he did when he was with us.

Here's the link to the video. https://fb.watch/5xGyLOftn0/  

 Big Spring Band Boosters.

The Knight and the Snow #ForeverRyanFite

August 2, 2021

James Fite is with Colton Redlin and 3 others

These guys are too good for me. Ryan had planned a trip with them almost 2 years ago to see Weezer, Fallout Boy, and Green Day in Houston. They asked if I would take his place on the trip. I of course said yes, and just got back from one of the best weekends I’ve had in some time, all because of them. I have watched them grow up, and couldn’t be more proud of the person each of them have become. Ryan had the best people in his life. And as hard as it was knowing he didn’t get to experience this himself, he was with us. Constant conversations about him as if he is still here. Happy memories only. We miss you, Ryan. Living our best life for you!

December 5, 2020

Amanda Fite - They were always talking about things we knew nothing about, he was her hero and the best big brother. If we knew how much it was going to hurt to miss him we would have hugged him a little tighter and loosened up about the little things.

December 20, 2020

Amanda Fite - When James and I got married all Ryan wanted was a cat. Without permission I got him a kitten, and Bella is by far the most awful cat I could have chosen, but he loved her.

Ryan Fite was 19 years old. On December 4, 2020 everything changed. He became a cherished memory which will never vanish.  Instead of a light fading, he became a burning flare of warmth felt by all.  Ryan's reach stretched far beyond the walls of his home. Beyond his enormous circle of friends. Past the limits of love. He left an impression on countless people. He will never be forgotten by those who knew him, and they will never not feel the impact he left and still has on them.

Ryan was born in Wichita Falls, TX on August 14th, 2001.  Before his first year, he and his father, James, moved to Big Spring, TX to be closer to family.  Later in life, his father would introduce him to Amanda, who he would eventually refer to as "my mom" to people. Ryan also met 3-year-old Alyssa who would latch onto him as his little sister.  James and Amanda married, and a family of 4 was formed.

He attended Big Spring High where band was life.  He played percussion and loved everything about it.  He graduated in 2019, and even after high school, would go to any and everything where he could watch his successors in band play.

Ryan had several families besides James, Amanda, and Alyssa.  He was welcomed in many of his friend's homes, where he would take off to for sometimes days.  No one worried because he was always with "family" no matter where he was. Ryan had no problem saying, "I love you" and following through by showing that love.  If he knew you, then you were genuinely cared about. Everything about Ryan… his heart, his impact, his reach… is infinite.  Because of that, Ryan will not be forgotten.  Instead, he will be forever.

Survivors include his parents, James and Amanda Fite; his sister Alyssa Wellner; a brother Matthew Carrasco; grandparents Don and Ann Fite, Lisa Kennedy, Edward Carrasco; and many other loving family members and even more friends.

Ryan was preceded in death by his birth mother, Brianne Carrasco.

Ryan will lie in state Tuesday, December 8, 2020, from 11 a.m. to 9 p.m. at Nalley-Pickle & Welch Funeral Home. A graveside service will be held Wednesday, December 9, 2020 at 2:00 p.m. at Mt. Olive Cemetery.

Online condolences may be made at www.npwelch.com. 


June 19, 2021

Thank you everyone for your words and wishes today. I’ve been laying low as this is the first one without Ryan. Just doesn’t seem the same without him. For the last 19 years I would hear him say, “Happy Birthday, Dad.” This day that was missing. So, the only thing I planned for today was to do something with him.

Before his accident, we had been watching the Alien movies together, and the next one on the list was Alien 3. Seemed like something was always going on or coming up when we would talk about watching it. One of the smaller things I regret, but a regret none the less. So, like with the Mandalorian, I have come out here to watch it with him. Life gets in the way. Things happen causing other things not to happen. Ryan and I always understood when we couldn’t do all the things we wanted together. But it made the times we did spend together that much more special. Right now, this is a special moment. He’s not here with me, but I am here with him. Or maybe he is… I’m open minded. Anyway, thanks again everyone. Hug your loved ones. I gotta go cause we’re watching Alien 3.

December 7, 2020

Amanda Fite - Today teens took over our home. They hung out and showed us so much love. These children were truly a gift on a dark day.

Jesse Evans - That's just cool, I bet he had a Lot of friends.

A second one from the winter memory...

May 4, 2021

Ryan was a Star Wars fan. A true fan. His favorite was The Empire Strikes Back. I'd be lying if I didn't say I truly believe his second favorite was Revenge of the Sith. He just had a thing for that cheesiness, and his favorite line to quote was, "Well, hello there." (You know you read that in Obi Wan's voice)

It was 5 months ago today we all lost him. It didn't hit me until now that I would look at May the 4th differently forever. I'm sorry you're not here. I'm sorry you're not able to send out your silly Star Wars memes. That your Jedi costume will remain in your closet today. That you won't get to take your lightsabers to your friend's houses to do duels with them. That you won't step into my office like you did every year, in full Jedi gear just to show off before heading out. That you can't say to me, "May the 4th be with you" and I can roll my eyes and explain again that Star Wars wasn't released on this date. But you thought it was funny and we did that same thing every year. I'm so sorry that we can't laugh about it anymore. But like the Force, Ryan will be with us... always. And for Ryan, I'd like to say to you all, "May the 4th be with you."

Greg McAlister - He will be greatly missed.

Lisa Rose - Such a handsome young man! What a proud moment for you and Amanda! I will never understand why these things happen and leave us feeling empty.


December 5, 2020

We lost our son, Ryan, yesterday morning in a traffic accident


Jake Leos - Our hearts prayers will go out to you and your family. Ryan was a great person. I will cherish how he use to make me laugh. I would genuinely fall for it every time. I would say “hey what’s up Ryan?” And he would always say - “the ceiling.” He will be missed but never forgotten.

8-14-2 - Jake Leos - Happy Heavenly Birthday Ryan. Now when I say what’s up, I know it’s you, (not the ceiling anymore. I miss hearing you say that.) You are missed.

Amy Leggett - Ryan has and will always be one of my favorite students!  ❤️ He could always find a way to make you smile with his creative antics! My family is so sorry for your loss! The world has lost such an amazing soul. Our thoughts and prayer are with you! Please give Alyssa a huge hug from Mrs. Leggett & Paisley.  ❤️

Corinne Attaya - There aren’t words in the English language to appropriately communicate how sad I am to hear about this. You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers and your PCFF family will be here for you whenever and whatever you need us for. Lots of love to you dear friend.

Corinne Attaya - There really are no words at all. Grief can be so heavy sometimes. Thank you for allowing us to share in your grief and for giving us the opportunity to show you the love and care you so deserve.

Paul Shiver - Corinne's sentiments are mine as well James Fite. In fact, be fully comfortable in knowing that your PCFF Family will always be here for you! We got-cha' from over here in these parts good sir! We will forever be honored to help keep your son's memory alive. May God bless you and your family with peace & comfort.

Brennen Phipps - James, I honestly don’t have the words to express. Ethan and Evan could only cry and sit on the floor. We aren’t supposed to bury our children. My soul hurts for y’all.

Jessica Hibbitt - James, I wish I could say something of value. Or do something. I’m just so sorry and sick over the situation. Y’all are going to be on my mind, friends.

Tracee Beebe - I am so very very sorry. There is literally nothing anyone can say that might ease your pain but please know that our hearts are with you and your family.

Jonathan Perez - My heart and condolences go out to you and your family. I can never imagine how hard this must be. Y’all will be in our thoughts. Hang in there man.

Brandie Sizenbach - Just wanted to say our thoughts and prayers are with you all! The loss of a child is something no parent should ever have to go through.

Samone Norsworthy - There are no words that can fill this box with any real comfort for you and Amanda. Please just know I love y’all and am so very sorry.

Jordan Buckley - Oh, what unbelievably horrible news. Definitely have you & your family in my thoughts, James. Sending you love from San Marcos.

Janie Martinez - Our condolences to you and your family James. You are in our thoughts and prayers during this difficult time. - STXIFF

Greg McAlister - I cannot come close to words to explain how sorry we are. I know nothing we say can or will help but just know we are here.

Robert Chase - I am heartbroken for your loss. Ryan was a special person and will be missed by everyone who was blessed to know him.

Kristi Diaz - I’ve been praying for you and your family. Please let me know if there’s anything you need. His memory will live on forever.

Terri Telchik - I’m so sorry!! Praying for peace & comfort for your family. If I can help in any way please don’t hesitate to call me!

Miguel Cosme - James and The Family and friends    I'm am so sorry such a beautiful soul, we are all here for you and your family.

Isabel Dréan - As a parent, I cannot imagine what you are going through. Sending you light and prayers. So sorry for your loss.

Jennifer Muniz - There's really nothing that can be said other than I am so sorry and will be praying for you and your family.

Nina Hosea - He had such a fantastic personality that will be greatly missed. Even that muffin song he always played.

Tyler Bradley - Sorry to hear about you son James. Thinking about you and your family if we can help we are here.

Diana Chase - So terribly sorry for the loss of your special son. You are in our thoughts and prayers.

Jonathan Torres - Devastating. I'm so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.

Brenda Garza - I'm deeply sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Kristi Diaz - I’m so sorry James I just want to give you a big hug. Sending lots of prayers your way.

Fatima Hye - wow, this is terrible - I'm so shocked and sorry to hear this! Prayers for your family...

Becky Overby - James I am so sorry for your tragic loss. My heart breaks for you and your family. 💔

Jose Ramirez - I’m so sorry for your loss James. My heart goes out to you and your family.

Jennifer Ramsey - Oh my Goodness. James Fite this is horrible news. I am so very sorry!

Ven Scott - Dude, I am so sorry. My condolences, homie. Deepest love to you guys.

Marisa Duran - Oh, James. I am so, so sorry. Sending light and love to your family.

Chris Perez - So very sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts.

Claudia Espinoza - Sending love to you and Amanda. My heartfelt condolences.

Michael Berry - So sorry to hear this tragic news. Sending love to your family.

Adrienne Green - I’m so sorry for your loss. Praying for you and your family.

Donovan Fulkerson - Oh wow, so sorry sir, prayers and love your way...

Raela James - So so sorry. He was a Great kid. Prayers for all of you.

Aaron Ballard - My condolences to you and your family on your loss.

Josh Gonzales - I’m so sorry for your loss James. Our condolences.

Robert Pérez - my condolences and prayers to you and your family.

Mariella Pérez - I'm so sorry to hear this. Love, hugs, and prayers.

Kim Murray - I’m so sorry. I’m sending you love and lots of hugs.

Carrie Johnson - My heart aches for you, James. We love you.

Houston Hill - My sincerest condolences, James. I’m so sorry.

Joey Olmeda - Sorry to hear this James, God Bless him.

Leticia Mendoza - Sorry for your loss. Sending prayers.

Rannes Man - I am sorry for your loss James.  😞  RIP

Brian Landa - Deepest thoughts and sympathies...

Nichelle Tamara - Praying for you and your family.

Brian Landa - Deepest thoughts and sympathies.

Brian Maurer - I am so, so sorry. So very sorry.

Andrew Deleon - Ryan will never be forgotten.

Brandon Blagrave - I’m so sorry for your loss.

Misty Middleton - I am so sorry for your loss.

Bobby Barber - So sorry to hear this James.

Allen Morris - I'm sorry for your loss James.

Linda Burchett - So very sorry for you loss.

James Draper - I am so very sorry, James.

Leonel Guerrero - My prayers for you all.

Debbie Rupard - We are so sorry James.

Michelle Wrinkle - Sorry for your loss.

Matthew Rigdon - I’m so sorry, man.

Abby Kiker - So sorry for your loss.

Shane Muniz - So sorry! Prayers.

Carrie Johnson - Love you guys.

Christi Wallace - Love you guys.

Brent Fite

Adrian Calvio - ❤️

Karyn Bailey❤ ❤

Memorial donations be made to the Ryan Fite Scholarship Fund for the Big Spring High School Band.

Donations may be mailed to: Big Spring HS Band Boosters
Attn: Sonya Bravo
707 East 11th Place
Big Spring, TX 77920

Donations can also be mailed or made in person:
Big Spring Educators Federal Credit Union
1110 Benton
Big Spring, TX 79720

Please make checks payable to:
Big Spring High School Band Boosters for Ryan Fite Scholarship Fund

December 6, 2020
Lola Zene
Film Friends and Family, it pains me to make this post.
One of the Carnage Radio guys, Zach Campbell informed me yesterday that James Fite and family, lost their 19 year old son in a traffic accident. While they are navigating this shocking loss I wanted call upon the Big Spring Community, Film Festival comrades, friends and family to come together and ensure that the Fite Family's daily needs are met and alleviate some stress for them. Below is the MealTrain link with an interactive calendar. The calendar is used to coordinate meal drop-offs, grocery runs, and any errand request the family might need. There are also drop off instructions, my contact info where you can email or text questions, and also a heart healthy suggestions guide to take into consideration when meal planning for James due to his heart condition. With that being said for the time being, contactless drop offs would be best in regards to COVID precaution and prevention practices. Lastly, to the Fite family. You are loved. I wish there were some law of nature that prevented parents from ever having to lay one of their children to rest. I am sorry I can't be there physically to properly give my condolences. I'm just.... sorry, for all of it. If I could take the pain away, I would do it in a heart beat. You guys stick together and focus on yourselves. Take whatever time you need and as much space as you want.

January 4, 2021

One month as of a few minutes ago. Still hits hard like it was just a few minutes ago. He was doing everything right. The world did indeed lose something that day...

July 4, 2021


Brother, I don’t know why you had to leave us
So many thoughts run through my head
I get mad when asked and I don’t want to discuss
I just run and hide myself in your bed
Calling your cell phone to leave you a voicemail
I really hope you got them, cause it’s all I have left
A way to talk to you, a way to tell you that I miss you
Something I can cling to, I’m sorry I seem so frail
I don’t know what to do when dad locks himself away
I hear him through the door, trying to hide his cries
I don’t know what to do, and I really don’t know what to say
I just hug him tight, and hope he knows it’s from you and me
They both try to act okay, but I know our world is broken
The empty chair at the table, the ghost of who was once there
This house is cursed and so much is left unspoken
Brother, I just really don’t know why life is so unfair
Why is this life what it is?

And brother, I wish you could tell me it’s okay
Why is it hard, why is it this?
Why couldn’t you stay?
Why did you leave?
You are here, but you are so far
Why did they take you away from me?
I just hope you are okay where you are

Son, I’m sorry I didn’t say goodbye
That last morning you left our home
The echoes of the door closing make me cry
Driving me to feel like I live in a tomb
I’m haunted by the screams from your mom
Every time I try to look into her eyes
What do I do? What do I say when it hits me like a bomb?
Maybe I was never meant to give this life a try?
I beg and plead to whatever might be out there
To trade to let me be the one who’s to die
But then there was the fear
That you would be the one who had to say goodbye
No more calls, no more hugs, no more “love you and love you, toos”
No more laughs, no more “what do you want to dos?”
Life has changed and it will never be the same
I just wish it could be the same
Why is this life what it is?

And son, I wish you could tell me it’s okay
Why is it hard, why is it this?
Why couldn’t you stay?
Why did you leave?
You are here, but you are so far
Why did they take you away from me?
I just hope you are okay where you are

First draft. And maybe I'll find someone who can sing it better than me with some tracks I make when it's done. 7 months. Feels like 7 days. Thank you to everyone who has been there for us. And to all of Ryan's friends; I couldn't be happier that you were the ones who he wanted in his life. You are all amazing! (This one is far from being done. These lyrics have been in my head for days and needed to get them down to see what it turns into.)

Nina Hosea - Many hugs for you all. I'm going to go wash my tear soaked face. That is a beautiful tribute to him.

Josh Wolfer - If you want bass or vocals, I'll do em if you want em.

James Fite - Didn't realize you sang. Be cool to hear some of your stuff sometime. This one is far from being done. These lyrics have been in my head for days and needed to get them down to see what it turns into.

Ginger Rose

December 28, 2020

My son was 19 years old. On December 4th, 2020 everything changed. He became a cherished memory which will never vanish. Instead of a light fading, he became a burning flame of warmth felt by all. He is forever with us.

Ryan Fite - A Tribute to Life

 Music: “The Angel and the One” by Weezer The Red Album

Tyler Bradley - Hang In their James we’re here for you even if you just want to come out and ride around.

Bobby Barber - Prayers to you and your family.

Connie Chase - We really miss our boy!! Love you all.

Jeremiah Peters - So Sorry for you bro. I can’t imagine what your going through.

Jessica Hibbitt - Wow, James. So much love going your way right now. I hope doing this is healing for your heart in some way.

James Fite- It is. Sitting out there watching it with Ryan actually was the best part of today. Been waiting for a warmer night to do this. And we will finish the series together each night I can.

Marie Evans - Ryan was the best, but then again he came from greatness. I love yall so much and am eternally sorry you're having to go thru this.

James Fite- Hey everyone, sitting out there with my kiddo was good. I just need more warmer nights so we can finish the series together. Thank you all for the love you show my family.

Billy Pon- This is the way...  ❤️ Love you brother.

Zach Campbell - This really got me tonight dude. Love ya. Love your family. I look forward to talking about it with ya!

Jake Leos - Love you James. I’m sure Ryan is up there smiling and loving it too. Your a great dad dude.

Colton Redlin - Heck yeah he would’ve loved those last episodes too he was excited for them lol.

James Fite- Haven’t finished all of them yet. Going out there this weekend to watch the last of the season.

January 11, 2021

Days don't get any better. We haven't found a grave stone yet. We want it to be the right one for him. He gave us so many memories for options. And all those memories are what makes it feel like he's close by still...

Jeremy Grimes - It was a fun movie to watch and it was a blast being part of its release. I remember it was just a couple of days later that one of the stars would enter my life as one of my employees at the theater. I learned that Ryan is an amazing young man. Even after he resigned from the theater we still got to talk and I just got to know him more as he he would stop by just to say hi or see him around town. I remember a lot of fun and laughter over the couple of years and I will cherish those memories.
My heart absolutely broke. I am so thankful that I had the opportunity to get to know him just as I have you and the rest of your family. My heart goes out to you and Amanda as well as the rest of the family. You are in my continued thoughts and will continue to for a long time to come.

Tracee Beebe - This is such a special movie and an even more tender memory. My heart goes out to you all.

January 12, 2021

The last photo we took together as a family. It's perfect in my humble opinion. His 19th birthday. “It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of light, it was the season of darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair.” - Charles Dickens​

February 14, 2021

Amanda Fite - It’s the little things you start to miss. I don’t know how many nights we woke up to this entire group of kids running in looking for switch controllers and immediately heading back out. If y’all could just occasionally break in at 2am it would be terrifying but appreciated.

James Fite - Analisa Blount, Colton Redlin, Chris Grisham, Quade Creswell... I think she just gave y'all permission...

June 9, 2021

Amanda Fite - It’s been a little over 6 months and every day still feels like a sucker punch. Hug those littles tight.

Tamara Hewes - Been thinking of you all during this milestone. Can't believe it's been 6 months. 

Buddy Murray - I remember that night all too well, he was so upset and worried about you. All he wanted to do was get back and see his dad. I tried to keep him calm for the forty five minute drive back from Snyder. I remember asking him if he was ok, he responded, I just need to know my dad is ok. He loved you more than anything in this world, all he ever wanted was to make you proud.

Brandon Torres - I really don’t have many words for what you just wrote or what you have experienced over the past two years. I just know that it has resonated with me so hard. Your sentiment as a parent I’ve taking on the pain and replacement of your child having to feel it is profound and really inspires me. Thank you for these words displaying your strength and clarity. This post: just wow!

Robert Chase - Well said! Love and prayers for a long and happy life. It’s not supposed to be this way but we are all Ryan’s legacy now from the short time he influenced our lives.

Tracee Beebe - What an incredibly special gift that voice mail is and how powerful and beautiful the life you are living is. Never doubt that he is proud of you every second.

Jackie Thomas - Heartwarming story James. You are a great guy, a good friend and wishing you all the best in life.

Ann Swann - What an amazing story. Such a terrible loss. 
J William Boothman II - I love you, man.
Sean Collins - Best Wishes, James.
Tamara Hewes - Beautiful.
Nathan Austin -  Wow.
Kim Chase - Love. 
Jennifer Thomas

James Fite - For everyone commenting, thank you for your words. We've all been through a lot in the past year. Some of us more than others. It is possible to keep going. As I've said before, these posts are not for anyone to feel sorry for me or to try and get attention, but to instead remember.

I remember bits and pieces of how hard that first month was in and out of the hospital. I suffer some memory loss from being dead for so long; 56 minutes was the longest out of the six which is why they said I was brain dead and my organs needed to be replaced. But I do remember enough to feel the nightmare it was. I was talking to my friend, 
Jessica Hibbitt. seen there in the picture a bit before posting this, and we were actually in a conversation about that night when I looked at my watch and stopped in mid-sentence saying, "Wow, it was two years ago right now." Her jaw kinda dropped, and I just smiled and said, "Happy Death Day to me." She responded with, "Happy Death Day." And we laughed.

You see, it's a memory, and I can laugh because I'm alive. And I got to spend another year and a half with my son to make more memories. I got to see his pictures from his senior trip to NYC. I was able to help him build his first computer. I had one more Christmas with him. I saw him turn 18 and then 19. And I was able to hear the last words he ever said to me, which was, "I love you, too."

Yeah, we have all been through a lot. Not just me. And a lot of us are still trying to figure out what normal is. I can’t give you that answer, because I’m nowhere near finding it myself. But with the help of others, it will show up. Maybe with everything I’ve gone through, I can help someone else, too.

December 9, 2020
Tomorrow on KBYG there will be a 30 minute Tribute for Ryan with all Weezer songs.

After that, there will be The Mandalorian soundtrack. Movies on the Radio.


Billy Daves II - If I recall correctly, I went to that concert too. Magical night. Did Ryan have a favorite Weezer song?

James Fite - Yeah, you guys were there. And probably "Say It Ain't So" was his favorite.

Brennen Phipps - It’s still hard to listen to this song.

Colton Redlin - I miss him every day, one of the best friends I could’ve asked for lol and yes he sure loved his Weezer songs. I bought them all on rock band just to play with him.

Kody Fouts - There’s not a day I don’t think about him, I miss the days driving around town with him listening to Weezer, wish I could go back and do it all again, I hope y’all are doing okay, prayers to the Fite family.

Buddy Murray - I sure miss him so much! He always talked about Weezer to me while riding around at work. He couldn’t wait to go to the next concert.

Tasha Murray - Prayers to y’all always we miss him so so so very much not a day goes by that we don’t talk about him or even think of him. We love him so much he will forever hold a huge place in our hearts.

Connie Chase - He'll always be that special Angel! Love and miss you so much, Ryan!

Kaila Murray - We miss him so much!

Jacque Moore - Enjoy your movie with Ryan...I know he is watching it with you!

Nina Hosea - Happy birthday and now Happy Father's Day. Sending you all warm wishes of comfort and healing. Hope you enjoy your movie with Ryan. 

Jennifer Thomas - The firsts are the hardest!!! It’s the little things I miss the most. 

June 19th - Brent Fite - Happy Birthday little Brother!! Make it a good one!

June 20th - Brent Fite - Happy Fathers Day Brother. Love ya man!

Lacey Wilkinson Wolf - What a beautiful tribute. ❤️

Nina Hosea - This was a lovely tribute. Love the song too.💙💙

Brent Fite - Absolutely beautiful tribute to Ryan, Brother. Well done!!

Stephanie Guzman - What a beautiful tribute to your son.

Greg McAlister - What a great tribute. Wish your family would never have had to go through this.

Robert Chase - Beautiful tribute! He was a great loss to the world but clearly made an impact to everyone blessed to have known him!

Jeana Prather Phillips - A beautiful tribute. Thanks for sharing.

Amy Nicole Leggett - A beautiful tribute to a beautiful soul!! This world will never be the same.

Jeremy Grimes - Love this.
Connie Chase - He was so special--- Love you guys. Aunt Connie

Ryan asking "Alyssa, did I remember deodorant? I have a better birthday party to go to after this and I need to be fresh."

Alyssa “No, you didn’t. Gross.”

Ryan "Yolo!"  (“You Only Live Once”)

(Wish we could remember what Ryan was actually saying.)

August 14, 2021

I watched you grow up for half my life. Most of those years I was afraid of the “what if I’m doing it wrong?” Could I do things better? Am I a good enough father? And then one day you were a man. A better man than I. My fear went away. I did my best, and you were the best. Today you would have turned 20 years old. You deserve for there to still be a celebration. And there will be. Happy Birthday, Ryan. I love you. We all do!

Amanda Fite - The outtakes are also perfect ❤️

December 5, 2020

We lost our son, Ryan, yesterday morning in a traffic accident. A graveside service for him will be Wednesday at 2 p.m.

January 23, 2021

Amanda Fite - Seven weeks and the days aren’t getting any easier.

Buddy Murray - I sure miss that guy. I think about him every day and all the great memories we had. I am praying for you guys.

Tasha Murray - We pray every single day for you guys and think of Ryan every single day.

Darrin Black - Our thoughts and prayers are with you guys always. We miss him.

Brennen Phipps - Weezer came on in my truck the other day when Ethan and I were coming back from Midland. He didn’t make through the song.

Lacey Wolf - I think about and pray for y’all daily!  ❤️

Marie Evans - ❤️ I hope the days get easier for y'all.

Nina Hosea - Amelia and I were just talking about him this morning. Hugs for you all.  💙

Robert Chase - He is missed by all.

Jennah Hamilton - Prayers for yall!!!

Tamara Hewes - Think of him and you guys every day.  ❤️

Buddy MurrayHe did love his cats. Every house we went to that had a cat he would pet the cat for like ten minutes until I would say Ryan we got to get to work. Then the cat would follow him around the whole time. (4-16)

A Cherished Memory

Stacy Thomas - I am so sorry you guys are going through this. ❤️ I hope for you all to find peace with it eventually. Grief comes in waves it seems.

Tasha Murray - Continued prayers. We love you guys. If you need us holler. We are forever here for you all. ❤️

Marie Evans - That boy was perfection at its finest. He was so loved and you guys know it, but I want you to know that you 3 are also loved and thought about all day long by so many people! We can't stop the pain but we're here. This heartache won't ever go away but it will get lighter. Don't carry it all yourselves, you've got people. And know, without a doubt, Ryan wouldn't want any of your lives to stop on his behalf. Live for Ryan. You don't have to right now, you can be sad but eventually, do all of the things, because I know he would be there, cheering you all on. Give each other the pep talks he would have given you. Ryan represented carefreeness and joy. Remember that.

May 24, 2021

James Fite shared a memory from
Ryan’s Graduation Night
May 24, 2019.

It was the beginning of the rest of his life. We were so proud of him, and had no idea how proud he would make us with what he would continue to do. You were doing everything right, Ryan.

James Fite - May 24, 2019

Graduation is over. I’m home. And I kinda feel as if I accomplished something. Like a long, almost 18 year project is completed. Really proud of Ryan, and can’t wait to see what’s next for him!

December 5, 2020

My kids wanted to make a movie with me a few years back. So, we got the camera out, and over the course of many, many nights between dinner and bedtime, shot a home movie I will cherish forever.

Amanda Fite - Gary, I love this! Thank you for sharing it.

James Fite - Yeah, there was a better party to get to...

Gary Redlin - Lol. Party?? Most of the time they sat on my couch watching weird videos, watching people play games, or playing games.

James Fite - I was there on Colton‘s last one, raging at marble races. It was a great time. Thanks for letting Ryan into your life there.

Gary Redlin - Wouldn’t of had it any other way. 

Kristi Diaz - Love seeing all these pictures keeping his memories alive. Praying for you and your family James.

February 7, 2021

Tonight we finished The Mandalorian. Ryan would have loved it. I’m glad I was able to come out here and experience it with him. “This is the way...” 

Kristi Diaz - Love it.  ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

December 9, 2020

To all his friends, thank you. Everyday to the end of time we will be grateful for the love you have shown. Because of all of you, Ryan will not be forgotten. Instead, he will be forever. We lost our son on December 4th. A service will be held Dec 9th at Mount Olive Cemetery at 2 p.m.

​Jeremy Grimes - I love your collage of him.


April 4, 2021

Weezer was Ryan's first concert and I got to take him to it. He loved it! It was supposed to be the first of many we would go to. 4 months ago today, those plans changed when the world lost him. Out of all the concerts I've attended, this was my favorite just because I got to experience that smile on his face which lasted the entire night. When a Weezer song comes on, that's what I think of, and I can hear him singing along with it. The last song we ever listened to together was Weezer's Beginning of the End as we sat out on the deck one evening. So, for those of you out there who still miss him like I do, just turn on a Weezer song, close your eyes and maybe you'll see that smile and hear his voice one more time.

Colton Redlin - I definitely took the lightsaber battles a little too serious. I had a problem of being a little too competitive but man was it fun and good times. That’s what I’ll always remember is the stupid things, the fun things we did together. I miss him every day.

James Fite - Those are always the best times.

Isabel Dréan - Sorry for your loss.... I can’t imagine.  💕

Michael Berry - I’ve no doubt he’s up there among the stars shining bright.

Connie Chase - We lost so much when we lost our special boy! Life will never be the same. We miss him so much! Love you all, Aunt Connie

Billy Pon - Love you my brother. He's still in you.   “No one’s ever really gone.”

Gary Redlin - He will truly be missed   “May the force be with you”

Brandon Torres - James this post is beautiful. He watches over you as the Jedi’s in empire did. As a father I am sure all your interactions were as precious to him as they are you. Love, ya buddy. I know we barely got time to get to know each other, but in the small time I got to know you I saw a man with integrity, heart and pride. You gave him the freedom to be who he needed to be. Call or text if you need ANYTHING.

Nina Hosea - Good vibes to y'all. Sending you positive energy and virtual hugs.

Ann Swann - And may the fourth be with you, too, James. 

Debbie Rupard - You too, James.

May 26, 2021

I keep moving forward because if I didn't, I'd let him down. And in turn, I would let everyone else down, too. From the second Ryan was born, he was my motivation. He still is.

March 5, 2021

Amanda Fite - It’s been 3 months without this smile, we sure hope the next 3 get a little easier.

December 8, 2020

Amanda Fite - It was a surprise getting a call this evening letting us know that during his viewing Ryan somehow ended up with a collection of plastic spoons.
You see... during his four year stay he relieved BSHS of thousands of plastic spoons. 
His class found the perfect way to honor him.

February 2, 2021

He didn’t get to finish The Mandalorian. I couldn’t finish it without him. So, here we are. “This is the way...”

January 2, 2021

The ground covered in snow only makes me think of the last snowfall when Ryan went out dressed as a knight to pose dramatically... or perhaps humorously was his intent. Either way, this will be my forever winter memory, the knight and the snow. I did some work in Photoshop to give them the oil painting on canvas look they deserve.

February 9, 2021

I was just a kid. About a couple of years older than he was now. I had no idea what I was doing at that age, and no business being a father. But that's what I became. And he made it all clear for me. He saved my life more than once. Motivated me in every way. Made me who I am today. I will always remember and forever be thankful for the life he spent with me.